My Sunday... My weekend ((continued...)

okay, so I just got home. It's 7PM, and we were about a half hour, to 45 mins late, to my cousin Michael's graduation party. We called my grandparents on the drive, there, and, we spoke with them on the phone for a little bit. And, if you didn't know, well.. no, you probably didn't. but, my dad was born in Pennsylvania and then they moved to New Jersey later on in my dads life. And, then, my  grandparents ended up moving down to Florida... when I was maybe, 8 years old? But...  Good news! They bought a new house, they got a farm. They wanted a farm, for about a year now.. they were looking at one, but, they actually had to rent out some houses, on that farm, and they would have been coming in with two incomes. So, they looked.. looked.. and looked.. and, they got a farm. They will be raising cattle. There is about 12 rooms (maybe more, who knows!) in the house. Thing is.. I don't know how they will take care of the cattle. Let alone, do with all of that property, or home. My grandmother just turned 71, in October. and, My grandfather.. is.. NO older then, 74? I forget, exactly, but around that. They are still somewhat young. But, there wish is for the ENTIRE family, to come down to florida. They have enough room, for all of us. It is a 12 acre farm. Which is decent! That was the size of my grandmother, on my mother's side, backyard. BUT, she didn't have a farm. She had a pretty big property, and then she had a field, behind her home. God bless them, I am worried.. but, we will see how it comes out. All of the work, would be all on my grandmother, my grandpa is lazy. He can't even get mustard, to put on his pretzel. He ALWAYS, yells "RO! (short for Rosemarie) go get me some mustard!"  So, i'm afraid for her. GOD FOR BID, something happened, to either one of them... I don't know how they can raise cattle. Especially, if one passes on one day.. how they would be doing it, alone. I am debating weather or not to maybe go down there. I think it may be good for me... everything is so cheap there. I don't like hot clements, but I have been thinking of it for awhile. It would be a good change, chance to meet new people. So, i'm still debating. It would give me a lot of independence.. although, I think my grandparents, at the same time, would drive me BONKERS! haha.

But, after we spoke we went into  my cousins party. I said hello to my uncle (my god father) and, my step aunt, first. and, earlier this week... Wednesday... my cousin and I, went at it. She got a job, with her step dad, she gets paid $16/Hour, at her job, AND she is 8 months younger then me! BUT, she only got the job... because of her step dad! and, she always like's to brag about it. How she has her own apartment, and everything. and, then.. there is me, I actually try, on my own, and, that is NEVER good enough. My uncle (her father) picks on me, for it. and, he told me I should actually go live with my grandparents, and, I can work for them, and pick up cow shit all day. Yeah, I hear this kind of stuff, all the time. How nice, right? I could never really stand, my fathers side of the family. My dads, sister, favors my cousin. My god father, just treats me bad. I am sick of it. I really am. But, I just "Kill them with kindness" and, take their shit. and, pretend it doesn't bother me. And, yet, they still continue. So, I just learned to ignore it. But, anyway, I ended up telling her I am not trying to compare myself to anyone. And, she said.. but, you are. I'm like, what? Look what your doing, miss. It just doesn't make sense. So, I didn't say hello to her at the party. Or her mom, or her step dad, the one who got her the job in the first place. He look's like a leprechaun. He never takes any effort, to say hello anyway. So, why should I?..Right? So, I went over, to my uncles, best friend, Jimbo, and his family. I spoke with his wife for a good 20 mins. She told me her whole life story. But, I really enjoyed talking with her. And, then I ate like a plate of food, I really liked the delivered eggs, I had two of those. And, my cousin, Chuckie, sat with my parents and I. And, it was nice... for the most part, we were talking. I enjoy talking to Chuckie. Him and I can relate, on SO many levels. He is an only child. and, I told him about Ashley... and, I told him, how, I am not trying to move out, right away, and, I honestly, don't see what the rush is, or the competition! and, he said "well, look at me!" and, he just turned 43, or 44, like in October. He still lives at home with his parents. I don't see anything wrong with that, honestly. He works for the government... so, it is not like he is really sitting on his ass, and letting his parents way on him hand and foot. Plus, his mother had Cancer, several years ago. and, his father is having some health issues, right now. He is having problems with his hip.. and, honestly, I think Chuckie is doing the right thing! He will be one rich bastard, after his parents, eventully, die. and, That is how I probably will be. Just, save, as much as you can. He is a momma's boy, but, he love's his parents. I just can't even explain it. Only child's, like, myself, is different.. then, people who have a sibling, or, more then one.  When your an only child, you don't really get compared, or anything. Which, is nice.. but, at the same time, it sucks. My entire life, I am afraid what will happen once my parents die. I wont honestly have anyone. I wont have no family. And, I wouldn't say I am the closest, with my cousins. My step cousins and I, don't talk. They're not very sociable..none of my cousins are, really. And, I am. Like, I have lots of manners..  and, I guess, i'm pretty shy around them. I can't explain it. I have my head on right, and, they have theirs.. crooked, a little. I have my moments, too, and I know it. But, it happens. Hopefully things will get better. We have our moments, where we don't say two words to each other.. and, the next time we speak, we talk a lot. It's crazy how it happens. But, I do feel awkward and uncomfortable, around them, I just don't know why. I always have been that way... ever since my grandparents moved, down to Florida. and, when my cousin's, parents, got a divorce.. I think, I went like, 6 years, without seeing them. So, there was that huge gap there, in awhile. Like, something was missing. They like talking about what is going on in their life... and, I don't. I feel as if, it's none of anyone's business, honestly. I just like, discussing, movies, music... that kind of conversation, with a lot of people. But, then, we may not always agree.. as usual. So, I just find family functions, very stressful. Is anyone else like that? I just get, so uptight. I only look forward to talking with the friends, of the family, and my uncle brian... and, my cousin chuckie. They don't judge me, plus they aren't drama filled. My cousin Chuckie and I, discussed the government, and  for a good hour, I discussed Madison's, schooling, with her mom. But, when it comes to talking with my Aunt Ro, or, My Uncle Mike, I just get so stressed. Aunt Ro, has to make a huge TO-DO, about everything you talk about. That is why, I guess, her and, my cousin Ashley, get along so well. They like to gossip. and, I don't! That is why, My cousin Ashley and I, don't agree awhole lot. Hmm... I guess, in a way, they give me tough love? But, I do not fucking(excuse my language) appreciate it! AT ALL! All I ever want, is to be treated like a human being, or be treated with the same respect in return. But, some of my family... all of their life, just revolves, around,  what they do. Work, School... Friends, yada, yada, yada. And, for me.. I am a realistic, type. And, what I mean by that.. is, If I talk about a piece of paper.. I, discuss, with others (that are my type) about that piece of paper.. and, we, bring it to life. We, think outside the box. It's like, well.. if this piece of paper, could walk.... we would all be in trouble. And, get paper cuts. I am that kind of person! Or, I can take something, let's say, the word: PLUNGER, and make SEVERAL jokes, that could probably last two hours, on just that one word. and, that is what Me, My mom, My dad, Chuckie, and my uncle Brian do. We have our own little, groups, I would say.. when we get together with our families. It has always been like this. I wish I could talk to my cousins, more, when we are together...  but, I just am so sickened. I don't say a word. and, I think, maybe, to cure this, would be NOT to text my cousins, everyday. and, ignore them.... if they text me. and, My next step, is maybe deleting ALL family, especially my dad's side, off of facebook. He has a small nit, family. We see my dad's side of the family, more.. we don't see my mom's as much, but I wish we could. But, My aunt doesn't add my mom, or other family members, on facebook, just me, and my cousins, because she feels as if with family... you should be able to call them on the phone, send them letters. and, facebook, or any social networking site, is just for your friends. and, I am starting to see what she means.. and, I couldn't agree more!!! and, I feel like, if I delete my cousins, and some of my family.. I wouldn't know what their up to, or vise versa, and, we would actually HAVE something to discuss, when we see each other. Does anyone agree, with me??, or, see where I am coming from??

but, the graduation party.. almost reminded me, of my graduation party. It was laid back. and, relax ful. People were sitting around, or standing.. eating, and talking. Nothing major. It was nice.


So, I had an interesting weekend. So many people this weekend, that I haven't seen, since, December 17th, actually! I feel as if, Dog Bite Money, always plays, when I see my dad's side of the family.. ha ha. But, I am always seeming to kill two birds, with one stone. Which, is always good. It was busy, busy, busy.



I Hope you all had a good one! I would love to hear about yours as well. :)

Again, if you read this far.. .god bless your soul. I am a very DETAILED writer. That's why I decided I would be good at writing blogs, I did get a certificate in writing!! So, I figured I would give it to good use. It is 8PM... so, it only took me an hour to write this. BUT, I did stop for a few mins, to just do a couple things around the house, really quick! :o)

I hope you enjoyed. and, hopefully I didn't bore you all TOO MUCH! ;-)

Hypothesis on this Weekend

So, does anyone else sometimes have a pretty productive weekend ahead of them? Where, you have a few events to attend? Yet, your excited and nervous, all in one? Well, that is how I am feeling right now. Very anxious. I don't know why I get like this... I guess, to see how fun (or, how well) everything will turn out in the end. I'll be seeing a lot of people this weekend.  and, when I know I will be seeing a lot of people, I get a little nervous.  I guess, I just don't want to make myself look like an idiot... and, trip.. and break a hip. Because, with my luck... anything is possible.

First off, let me tell you what I have planned for Saturday.. I am not ENTIRELY sure, what is going on for Saturday, yet, it is pretty up in the air right now. Things were being discussed and we (as in, My mom, myself, and my dad... and my uncle [[my dad's brother]] may tag along) may go to dinner, and then go see this band tomorrow night called 'Dog Bite Money' AKA 'DBM' they are a garage band, ranging from 40 years old to 52 years old. They play class rock music. They're pretty awesome! What nice men.

Lead Singer- Fred Geller (Who I call Freddy, but everyone else spells it Freddie)

Guitar- Chris Moran

Bass- Timothy Hoffecker (Who I call Timmy)

Drums- Steve Yosko

They been together for about 10 years now or, 11. I've seen them several times, over the years.. but, July of 2011, I decided to be an idiot, I recorded a LOT of their songs, when they played at the Italian Festival (I'm Italian), with the last name Romano... who would've guessed? ;), and, I made a video for them, on youtube. And, in this video, I said "I would so bang the lead singer he looks just like Steven Tyler!" Yes, I would like to state that isn't a VERY wise decision. I just took that video down, the other day... only took me, about 6 months! Hahaha. HOPEFULLY they forgot, all about it! I do think Freddy is a very handsome man, and, he acts and looks like Steven Tyler, in my opinion. But, after that video... I got a lot of attention, and at their next gig, and, it was at a Carnival at the Limerick fire house. and, I'll never forget it... It was one of the BEST days, of my life! Although, at that point in my life, I was going through some really hard times. But, It was July 15th, 2011. and, around 10:30PM or so, They started to play "Walk this way" By Aerosmith, and, I am a HUGE Aerosmith fan! (As I started in the previous  video from when they played at the Italian Festival) And, freddy likes Aerosmith, too! So, they started playing, walk this way... and, he had a cordless mic (as usual) and, he was walking around and dancing, as he was singing, and I saw him walk down the center of the tables, down the isle, and, I thought he went toward the back of the crowd (well, while I was texting... my twitter... saying OMG YAY DBM IS SINGING AEROSMITH) and, it was the verse where, "I gave her just a little kiss... like this." Freddy came up from behind me, when there was a pause in the music, put his arm on my right shoulder, and kissed my left cheek. and, I was SUPRISED I was like O_O and, I turned BRIGHT RED. As freddy proceeded to go back near the stage.... I looked up, and the guitar player, and Freddy giggled to themselves. I died and gone to heaven. But, from that day forward... I feel like a huge idiot, because Freddy is married, and, I believe he has a son and a daughter, who are close in my age range. and, I've spoken to his wife, at some of these events! I hope she doesn't think i'm some home wrecker, because i'm really now. It was more of a joke, and, I didn't mean anything by it. I wouldn't go through with actually "banging" him, I just think he is like ADORABLE. and, such a great guy!

And, back in November, we were at The Sand Trap, and, I brought my friend Dana with us to come see them, for the second time, and freddy was singing Summer of 69' by Bryan Adams, and I think it was also maybe around 10:30 or so, and, at this verse, freddy grabbed my hand, and we held hands, and he sang this part:

"Standin' on your mama's porch

You told me that you'd wait forever

Oh and when you held my hand

I knew that it was now or never

Those were the best days of my life"

It was so romantic!! haha... although i'm 20, i'm so cheesy, and, i'm such an old soul when it comes to a lot of stuff. I seriously get so excited, over the LITTLEST things!

It's funny, because the Drummer, and the Bass player... didn't start talking to us, until the end of October/Beginning of November.

Tomorrow, January 28th, will be there FIRST show, of the year!

So, as some of you can see, this is why I get a little nervous, when I go to these events.

But, it should be nice... i'm hoping we get a nice warm welcome. All of them there, always hug me, and kiss me! I made a few friends at these events too, which is  always nice. You can NEVER have too many friends! =) Everyone is so laid back up there. It is such a different environment, I love it. One day, I hope to maybe move up there. Only about 45 mins, to an hour away. If I even dare, to strike up a conversation, with people here...  like I do out there, they look at me, like I have 8 heads.. and 17 toes!

And, for Sunday, my older cousin, Michael, he will be having his graduation party. He graduated from Temple, and, I think he took a job... i'm thinking, in Florida, but, I could be wrong! Hopefully i'll find out tomorrow. I think he is going to do something, like accounting. I'm happy for him. It will be at the fire house, near his dad's house... I'm assuming his mom will be there, I haven't seen her since Ashley's graduation party, in July of 2010. and, I believe it's at the fire house that his step brother works at. I could be wrong.. hopefully it'll be fun. I am not entirely sure, if this party is for just the family, or if some of his friends will be there as well. I'm wondering if Hutch will be there! Which is, his "girlfriend" but, for, quite sometime, they took a break.. but they're adorable together. and, she is such a sweetheart. Things happen, and I know for awhile they were not on speaking terms, but I am glad they are again! It would be nice to see her, I believe, the last time I saw her was at the Christmas party, at Uncle Mike's house, in 2009. Ashley will be going... her and I have been texting this week, we don't always agree, so.. hopefully she doesn't shoot me dirty looks and hopefully everything is just hunky dory, the last thing I would ever want to do, is start anything. With her, or anyone really for that matter! I'm not about drama. I hate drama. I just get very urked, when someone trys to tell me what to do, it's my life. I do as I want. and, everyone is entitled to their own opinion. I love texting her every single day! but, at the same time.. I don't think we should text a whole lot, so, that way, when we see each other.. it's not awkward, and, we can actually talk about stuff, in person, that way, as well. I am actually thinking of deleting majority of my dad's side of the family, off of facebook. I see them, much more, then I see my mom's side, so, they don't need to see what I am doing all the time. Although, I don't really make many posts on what I am doing, and, I may post a song lyric, or a quote down, maybe twice a week, or something. But, still, My aunt and I actually had a conversation, at the Christmas party about a month ago, and she was saying how she refuses to add like my mom, or anyone (she only adds her nieces, or nephews) FOR that reason, so family don't have to talk over technology, but they can call.... or, write a letter, or just talk in person. So, that way, it is more interesting, and not all boring when we see each other, which, I totally agree. Because, it's ashame, all my cousins at Christmas parties.. or any events, whip out our cellphones, or laptops, and just sit there, quitely, texting our friends, or whatever. And, it's awkward! It's been awkward for years. I am a very sociable, girl, and my cousins aren't. I mean they are, but just among their friends. They don't socialize with family much. A friend, of the family, actually commented me recently, and said "What happeend to your cousins? They're not social-able, and you are. I feel as if they are the rude ones." and, to an extent, I can see where she is coming from. and, I couldn't agree more at times.

So, hopefully this weekend will be a good one. Hopefully it wont be awkward. But, I tend to make things awkward sometimes... I just make some faces sometimes (that I don't mean to make, I just do, without realizing it) and, I think I give off the wrong impression. Like, when I'm just relaxing, and chillin'... people take it the wrong way, and, think i'm tired. but, it happens, I will defiantly keep everyone posted on how it turns out. I actually downloaded the app, for blogger, on my phone. So, If it comes down to it..... and, I have no one to text, and all my cousins whip out their phones, i'll just blog from my phone! I know, I tend to make a LOT of updates, on twitter, when I am out for the weekend like this. I may annoy everyone.. but, I just want to update everyone, in real time. ;)

but, I hope you all have a fantastic weekend as well. I am not sure If I will blog, again, this weekend, since it will be pretty eventful, so, that is why I am just writing a fairly long blog at the moment. To make up for it! If you have any plans.. please leave me a comment! I would love to hear about it!

xo ~ Miss Maxine ~